Wednesday, September 16, 2009

I'M RIGHT HERE!!! HELLO!!!

I know I'm opening up the door to my friends having loads of fun at my expense. Nevertheless it must be brought into the light. I'm just going to go ahead and say it. I HATE HATE HATE when people ignore me!!! I am adding an arm-crossing, petulant foot stomping to that statement! I never knew this about myself until recently. I of course knew it bothered me, but it has never been a regular occurrence until this year. Obviously over the years someone neglected to pay attention and I'm sure I got a little ruffled. On the rare occasions that this happens, I place myself in their path, blow a bit o' sunshine at them and all is as it should be. Love is being bestowed upon me. Being ignored has never been a chronic thing with anyone other than my husband and The Boy and I got over that years ago. My husband, who I have decided to lovingly refer to as "The Steve" does not hear me speak. Never has. I know this. It kind of amuses me now. Though not always. I tell him crazy random stuff that he half acknowledges. Like he actually heard me and cares. I know he doesn't. If he listened, he'd be concerned as hell! So I get a good giggle at his expense and continue telling him what I want to tell him knowing full well he wouldn't be able to repeat back to me what I said. But, The Steve is deep in thought over weighty issues. I know. The Boy, I think just doesn't give a crap. If I parked myself in front of them however and said hello, they would acknowledge my presence.
So, here I am finding out that I cannot take it! It quite literally gets me riled. How riled? Enough that I feel the need to vent in this forum. It makes me feel better to get it all out!
I don't mean that people should be aware of my presence just because I walk the earth. I wouldn't find anything odd about it if they did though. I mean, that if I take the time to notice a person breathes, wonder about their existence, spend mental energy having a freakish amount of affinity and then actually make the effort to say..."Hi, how the hell are you anyway?", that a response is not too much to ask for. Right? Crap! I actually care about the answer or I wouldn't ask the question. I don't talk just to hear myself. Also, is it too much to ask that a person say good bye when they are ending a conversation? I don't think so. That is how civilised people know a conversation has ended. Well, that or dead air. Hate dead air. Rude!All I want is an acknowledgement. If a person you were fond of walked up to you on the street and said, "what's new with you?" Would you walk away, only to respond 2 weeks later if at all? No. That would be rude! If you are too busy, one could understand, but say so!
Maybe it is all the new ways of communicating that are screwing things up. The Steve responds much better to text messages than he does face to face. Of course, I don't see his face. He could be wearing the "blank" look for a minute or two before responding. I could possibly look into the different modes available. Perhaps ask my friends, "what works best for you?"
It is likely I'm just being an etiquette stickler. Possibly a whiner. An "over-communicator". Too friendly. What the fuck ever! Hello, I heard you, good bye. Basic shit.

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